I was struck by a nagging thought this evening when I looked at my little F@H utility... I realized that for years now, I have been something akin to addiction regarding distributed computing.
The reason I checked my folding program that normally just resides in the background, was to see what sort of PPD my videocard was pushing out. I look every day when I think about it. And I get a tiny dopamine burst when I notice a substantial gain in points being accumulated for work being done.
I don't allow any computing device I have in my life to remain idle. The only exceptions are the devices for which folding are not an option. And it weirdly makes me really angry and frustrated when I think about my playstation 4 just sitting there. Then I think about all the playstation 4's out there... and all the xbox's. Millions of them that could all be contributing. Electricity concerns aside... why not make these little computing devices we create work at 100% capacity all day, every day, for as long as they possibly can? Phones too... but with respect to my phone, I am only mildly irritated that I cannot fold with it. While there is a lot of power there these days... and CPU's in our phones are insanely powerful for their size... I can accept the idea of my phone just being my phone... and that it doesn't have to work very hard day to day. BUT - it must then AT THE VERY LEAST function the way I need at absolutely any moment I need it to. That is the trade for me not making it chug away on calculations at full steam 24/7.
I simply cannot explain it in the end... but I am absolutely unable to stop caring about DC altogether. For many years now.. I have been willing to pay the price of contributing to Folding@Home. My desktop, my laptop that I use specifically for Ableton, my wife's work issued Macbook Air... They all cost a certain amount to chug away all day every day. I've spent hundreds... probably thousands of dollars in electricity costs month to month, year to year, all so that the things in my life that can work, do, and are working.
But is it all pretty much just a giant waste? That is the dark cloud that is sort of lingering above me this evening. All I have are my little points I am issued. The more work I do, the more points I get... and hey I'm even in the top 20 now on the Ars team! Username = Yondaime. Those are the scraps I cling to in order to keep going on. But I don't REALLY know if I am actually contributing anytihng. Not really, I really wish there was a way to be certain about it. To know for sure that all this effort is actually paying off.
I suppose in the end as long as there is a chance that all my time and money and effort will help us understand or potentially cure these awful things humans go through then I will keep on going.
How about you? How much do you care about this? How much do you think we are all really helping? I'm really curious what people really think about this. Feel free to share!
The reason I checked my folding program that normally just resides in the background, was to see what sort of PPD my videocard was pushing out. I look every day when I think about it. And I get a tiny dopamine burst when I notice a substantial gain in points being accumulated for work being done.
I don't allow any computing device I have in my life to remain idle. The only exceptions are the devices for which folding are not an option. And it weirdly makes me really angry and frustrated when I think about my playstation 4 just sitting there. Then I think about all the playstation 4's out there... and all the xbox's. Millions of them that could all be contributing. Electricity concerns aside... why not make these little computing devices we create work at 100% capacity all day, every day, for as long as they possibly can? Phones too... but with respect to my phone, I am only mildly irritated that I cannot fold with it. While there is a lot of power there these days... and CPU's in our phones are insanely powerful for their size... I can accept the idea of my phone just being my phone... and that it doesn't have to work very hard day to day. BUT - it must then AT THE VERY LEAST function the way I need at absolutely any moment I need it to. That is the trade for me not making it chug away on calculations at full steam 24/7.
I simply cannot explain it in the end... but I am absolutely unable to stop caring about DC altogether. For many years now.. I have been willing to pay the price of contributing to Folding@Home. My desktop, my laptop that I use specifically for Ableton, my wife's work issued Macbook Air... They all cost a certain amount to chug away all day every day. I've spent hundreds... probably thousands of dollars in electricity costs month to month, year to year, all so that the things in my life that can work, do, and are working.
But is it all pretty much just a giant waste? That is the dark cloud that is sort of lingering above me this evening. All I have are my little points I am issued. The more work I do, the more points I get... and hey I'm even in the top 20 now on the Ars team! Username = Yondaime. Those are the scraps I cling to in order to keep going on. But I don't REALLY know if I am actually contributing anytihng. Not really, I really wish there was a way to be certain about it. To know for sure that all this effort is actually paying off.
I suppose in the end as long as there is a chance that all my time and money and effort will help us understand or potentially cure these awful things humans go through then I will keep on going.
How about you? How much do you care about this? How much do you think we are all really helping? I'm really curious what people really think about this. Feel free to share!